... am I'm back? Absolutely! Here's why...
So, 2010 ended with the shocking news that I needed to start a blog... delivered by none other than the man upstairs, through the voice of one of our church leaders. I assumed the basis of it was to share my crafting and to inspire others to create with their hands... i won't repeat the story so.... [read more here]
I started my crafty blog journey and within those 4-6 years of sharing handmade creativity, I resumed the joy I once had for writing. As a pre-teen / teen I had developed a desire of expression through words. Being an introvert helped me discover this hidden nugget, and keeping several journals of poetry and writing protected me against the lure of street violence and addictions. The majority of my written content was romantic and short-story based in nature. I disposed of them after I made the conscience decision at 18 years of age to follow Christ wholeheartedly.
Bringing 2013 to a close, I prepped for my first "21 Day Fast", which brought on a little tug to share my personal and spiritual process, and subsequently started my faith blog... [read more here.]
I admit I failed the past 2 years.
To make time to share my thoughts, discoveries & growth.
And the hard-hitting disappointment came earlier this year as I felt a familiar tug - similar to what I experienced in 2013. Except the tug was more of a nag. I brushed it off. Because I was too overwhelmed with longer work hours, an increase in family and church activity and completely failing as a parent (I'll share more later). I brushed it off because I wasn't qualified for several reasons, including the fact that my 5 year old laptop gave up on me. I didn't "feel" up to it. I wasn't inspired. I wasn't in the mood and I just didn't believe in myself... Except, the excuses that I allowed myself to get creative with, were kinda similar to what Jonah may have possibly been internally processing when he decided to face in the completely opposite direction to where he was instructed to go.
Those darn occasional nagging tugs became intermittent sleepless nights, flooded with thoughts, and post-its, and 1 am texts to myself filled with ideas and topics and experiences I felt I needed to share. Which brings me to today...
...today I sit here attempting to relaunch this thing (whatever it's called), in the hopes the reason for those internal promptings to write is because God has something to say through me, and if that something is important enough to keep me up at night, then it just may impact the life of readers across the country, and even the world. But if what I share on this blog will only affect one single person, it would still be all worth it.
There is no time to waste.
The more I think thought about it the more I know/knew there is/was something missing. Something that produces a sense of purpose. True enjoyment and satisfaction comes when you are fulfilling what you were created to do.
2 Peter 1:10-11 ESV - Therefore, brothers, be all the more diligent to make your calling and election sure, for if you practice these qualities you will never fall. For in this way there will be richly provided for you an entrance into the eternal kingdom of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.After reading the above verse, as well as others, I'd be doing myself a disservice by walking away from what could be an entrance to a next phase in my life. I'd be letting go of the What-Ifs and reaching towards the Something's-About-To-Happens.
I'm back. I'm excited. And as much as I'd like to say that I've set a blog schedule, I'm really basing everything on those small fussy promptings. Another 21-Day-Fast is drawing near. I invite you to connect with me, follow via email or blogspot (click on the link in the sidebar - to the right of this post), grab a low-carb snack and browse through my prior posts until the next share... and if you haven't already noticed... pink & rose gold are my jam!
"The Purpose Exceeds The Pain" - Beth Moore
Happy New Year!